Mr. Killer Smile

I know if I tell you the real background story you would think me crazy. But the truth is, I’ve been through so much to even care about being called crazy anymore. One night I was at a party, bored out of my mind and the next you walked in. I didn’t notice you at…

Things I want to tell you

I want you to know That not a day goes by that I do not appreciate you I want you to know that I made a mistake and I deeply feel bad about it But I dont regret it Because I’m human Because I’m supposed to learn from it Which I have I want you…

Pain.

I thought I’ve experienced all kinds of pain. But this one is new. This kind of pain I’ve never been through. It’s like I keep lying to myself I keep telling myself, I must have not liked you a lot That’s why I’m not bawling my eyes But I know, I know that I am…

Wishing star

When I was a young I would wish on shinning stars I would close my eyes tightly, and wish with all my heart for a bicycle, a dress, or a new book Funnily enough, the habit never died as I grew older The wishes got bigger and bigger I wished to get into college, I…

Pick me.

What does it mean, when you laugh and connect so well when face to face but then he disappears the next day? What does it mean, when you text for hours, until four am but then he disappears the next morning? Do you wake up the next day and think ‘oh, she’s just normal. I’m…

You.

I felt it, from the very first moment we met. You lingered at the table I was sitting on, hoping to finish our conversation. But I was still too broken then, and our paths wouldn’t cross until months later. Then, I saw you again. Right after another failed attempt to make myself whole. I sat…

Single-Solo-Alone 4lyfe

‘But being single is so much fun!’ ‘Go crazy! Go to parties! Go out there and date people!’ Gee, if being single is so much fun… why aren’t you single? Why don’t you give up your relationship to be alone? ‘I loved being single, it was so much fun.’ Really? Would you give up what…

Dear Past Me.

Hey sucker, Hope you’re really suffering through that horrible cold you had that week. And that anxiety/depression phase? You dragged it on for too long; seriously get a hold of yourself. Here’s the thing: You are making several horrible mistakes. You pursuing a man that is not interested in you You are looking in the…

The closet

I had the shittiest closet a girl could ever have It barely fit my clothes I would shove my work clothes, my gym clothes, my outside clothes, my fancy clothes and my gowns all in a teeny tiny space The drawers were small and one of the handles was broken But I wouldn’t change it…

Cannot stop

I cannot stop thinking of you Cannot stop wondering what you’re doing Where are you What would you do if I stopped looking at you What would you do if I suddenly grabbed you and declared my feelings Man, I am such a nuisance No wonder you don’t care for me I am acting like…